Hard Labor

I'm 23 years old and I am in the worst shape of my life. I have physical issues that 40 and 50 year olds have I'm sore and achey after only 4 hours at work, not to mention I am significantly over weight. But I'm finally planning to do something about it I wanna work out more, and eat better, I should be able to feel like I'm 21 and not 30. I plan to reach my goal weight by summer 2013. Wish me luck.

Update on Life

So I finally have my own apartment. Well it's mine and my boyfriends apartment, but its nice to finally have a space that is entirely my own, not one that I have to share with my parents. I'm not gonna lie, paying the bills every month can be rather stressful, but we get through it. I also gained a cat in this move. He's pretty cool, but can be rather bitchy occasionally. So on a different note, I've noticed lately that a lot of people my age (22) have been getting married/engaged lately. Now don't get me wrong I'm not saying that I want to get married at 22, I still have a lot more living to do before I settle down and get married, but it's just weird now when I'm hanging out with those people and their all saying "Hey this is my wife", "Hey this is my fiance" and I'm just a girlfriend. I definitely feel like I'm more than a girlfriend but less than a wife. I don't know for once it would feel nice that I'm headed in that direction in the relationship I'm in. But I'm in no rush to get married and have babies. I'm fine spoiling my friends and family's babies....for now :-)

College: helpful vs. hurtful

When you enter the 9th grade (or whenever High School starts at your school) you are told that the grades you get and the hard work you put in for the next four years until you graduate will help in getting you into a good college or university with possible scholarships and grants available for you. By the time you get to your Senior year or maybe even sooner you realize that there are numbers of different community colleges that are cheaper and contain the same options for degrees as a starter course for four year colleges. So now you start all over, all the work you did in High School payed off to get you into community college but now you have to work your butt off in college to get to another one. While this is a great idea for someone who doesn't quite know what they want to do with there life it can be overwhelming for someone who knows.

Auntie's Princess

I found out recently that my best friend, more like my sister is having a baby girl. I already knew she was pregnant but now I know she's having a baby girl. I can not wait until October :-)

Life's Unexpected Deathly Curveballs

This morning I woke up and looked on my facebook and noticed that there were a lot of people's status saying that one of my boyfriends very good friends, only 19 years old, had passed away. I immediately called my boyfriend and to my dismay I found that it was true. I felt overwhelmingly sad all at once. I didn't know him all that well, but what I did know was that he was a great guy who was really starting to go somewhere with his life. And I knew that one of our friends in particular would have been a complete mess about the situation. It got me thinking, none of us ever know when it will be our time to pass on. Even doctors couldn't tell cancer patients an exact date time and second of when they would die. I never realized how afraid I was to experience life but now more than ever I am reminded that you never know how long your life will be. So from now on I am determined to make the most of my life. To never second guess myself on the things I want, and also live my life to the fullest potential it can be. Not just for myself for the others around me, that could just vanish without me getting to apologize for a silly fight we had or ever truly find out their opinions on the important things in their life. Because no matter how much me and my friends might disagree I will always love every single one of them more than they'll ever know and I never want any of them to forget that.

This is dedicated to a great guy that I will always remember and will truly missed by all of his friends...R.I.P C.P

Officialy 20!

So I am officially 20, although I had my first catch at still calling myself 19 still. I went to the bank this morning and their was a new person there. She asked how old I was and I said 19. Hopefully by my 5th or 6th day of being 20 I'll remember to say my correct age.

My Birthday

So today is my birthday. Most people get super excited for their birthday and think it's a super big deal. But after my past couple of birthdays I'm just happy I still have true friends that really care about me and would do anything for me. Can't wait to hang at the park this weekend with them. Well I'm going to go spend my birthday money :-)